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Finalizing [Nov. 17th, 2012|11:58 am]
I didn't change it.
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Today is the day. Tomorrow is the real day, tomorrow is leaving and driving. But today, today is the final sprint.

I have been so anxious and worried over today. It's 11am I had a good nights rest and am having some coffee and down time before I dive head first into loading the truck and Uhaul. Our Uhaul has a black widow on it? That seems ominous. I thought I would have woken up panicked, in a frenzy with an attitude along the lines of, "there's no possible way we can accomplish this today." I don't have those feelings. At least I didn't until I made note of the contrast in how I felt and how I thought I would have felt. The pressure is absolutely there, and just enough stress/anxiety to keep me focused. Sometimes I think I perform better when I'm in a crunch.

I have to call Amanda later, or if your reading this CALL ME AMANDA. Ha ha, give me a reason later today to stop and take a break. When I get into work mode I can be on my feet for ten hours at a time or more without stopping. No sitting, food breaks, no slowing down. Annie, pace yourself. Okay.

Does anyone use retinoids? Retinol creams on your face? I used to be very good about my skin care routine then I just... Got lazy about it for a few months. I'm back to using moisturizers and night wrinkle/age creams again. I've been using age defense products for years. I figure prevention is the best method. The night cream I a always used was Neutrogena's nighttime healthy skin anti-wrinkle cream. It has retinol and multivitamins. The packaging is kind of hard to work with. It comes in a metal toothpaste shaped tube if you squeeze it too hard when it's full too much comes out. The metal tube also waste a lot of product, you just can't squish it out. At the same time the packaging is what makes it so effective as well as sanitary. Think about cream in pots, the surface area that's exposed and dipping your fingers in to get product, yikes a Petri dish for bacteria. Air also does something to retinol, I'm too lazy to google it right now but I know some kind of chemical reaction takes place that pretty much renders it useless. Well I suppose you would still have a good moisturizer but you lose the effects of the retinol, and that's usually the ingredient that helps drive the price up. Vitamin C creams are like that too oxidation?

So I bought a new tube of Neutrogena's night healthy skin used it one night, Molly found it and squeezed it all onto my couch. That was $15 well spent. A few days later at the store I picked up a different Neutrogena product. I had read reviews on it. I am kind of a creep, I always try to read reviews and educate my self on things before I buy/use them. Especially with cosmetic products, I have sensitive skin that is on the oily side. Also in the last year I have started to get acne. :( I know right? I'm 27 and getting pimples!? What the hell?! Luckily and unfortunately I only break out on my chin. The worst thing is they are deep under my skin and hurt. I haven't gone to a doctor about them but plan to in Crescent City, I had an appointment with my OBGYN a few weeks back and was going to ask her about it but Jon had to work so I had to cancel. Having 2 kids and no babysitter is hard. So back to the chin issue ughhhh. About a week before my (frequent&irregular) periods start to have a small hard bump form on my chin, like a mosquito bite but deeper. At this point it isn't visible, no redness no "head" no swelling I can just feel it. Then within days it swells up and becomes painful. You can't pop them, and if you try to, which I have, i know you aren't supposed to, I know! So if I try to squeeze them I wind up with a scab. It is a lose lose, if I leave it alone it alone the swelling ultimately leaves me with shiny over stretched skin that seems to bruise from the inside. When the swelling goes down after about a week, I am still left with a blemish. A dry reddish scab from the trauma of whatever is happening under my skin.

okay... Sorry guys I have to stop writing and start packing. Sorry if I'm grossing you out but I want to talk about skin more. I'm hoping some of you guys with great skin can help me out. Or maybe my post will inspire you to start/change up your ski care routine. .

Wish me luck.

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(no subject) [Jul. 25th, 2010|11:18 pm]
I didn't change it.
How is it possible that I am still pregnant!?!?!?   I can't stand it.  hour of contractions everyday for the last week and then-suddenly nothing.  I can hardly breathe.  

I don't know how I am even going to sleep tonight.  This baby feels like a reverse black hole in my body.  And I can't do shit about it.  

Go to the doctors around ten a.m. tomorrow.  pray to god she agrees to just Induce me.

REALLY.  I have Known that I was pregnant since BEFORE THANKSGIVING OF LAST YEAR.        Do you know how fucking looooooongggggggggg that is.  I WANT TO SCREAM.

past due past due past due 41 weeks pregnant with no end seemingly in sight.

ha! and still NO NONONONONONON   NAME!

what a great mom I am.


yeah i know these name polls are getting boring, but eh.  i just can't figure things out.  on a scale of one to ten one being absolutely horrid 10 being the best thing ever,  or something like that.

Poll #1597278 nothing fits

Sawyer Solace

Mean: 5.73 Median: 5 Std. Dev 2.53
1
1(9.1%)
2
0(0.0%)
3
0(0.0%)
4
3(27.3%)
5
3(27.3%)
6
0(0.0%)
7
0(0.0%)
8
1(9.1%)
9
3(27.3%)
10
0(0.0%)

(Este) Estelle Kay

Mean: 6.27 Median: 6 Std. Dev 2.34
1
0(0.0%)
2
0(0.0%)
3
2(18.2%)
4
1(9.1%)
5
1(9.1%)
6
3(27.3%)
7
0(0.0%)
8
1(9.1%)
9
2(18.2%)
10
1(9.1%)

Harlow Poppy

Mean: 5.82 Median: 7 Std. Dev 2.76
1
2(18.2%)
2
0(0.0%)
3
1(9.1%)
4
0(0.0%)
5
0(0.0%)
6
2(18.2%)
7
3(27.3%)
8
1(9.1%)
9
2(18.2%)
10
0(0.0%)

Lola Grace

Mean: 7.75 Median: 9 Std. Dev 2.89
1
1(8.3%)
2
0(0.0%)
3
1(8.3%)
4
0(0.0%)
5
0(0.0%)
6
1(8.3%)
7
1(8.3%)
8
1(8.3%)
9
2(16.7%)
10
5(41.7%)












MIGRANE
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talking about my feeeeeeeelings. [Jul. 22nd, 2010|09:21 am]
I didn't change it.
[Current Mood |rotten]

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i know i am not "rockin" [Jul. 8th, 2010|12:38 am]
I didn't change it.
 If you want to use my due date -which I don't believe in- I have SIXTEEN days to go.






Nobody.  I mean NOBODY reads this anymore,   (In my head I was just screaming like Carolin Burnham).  I suddenly quit comparing myself to every one else and don't feel half as bad anymore.


So there I was sitting in the walmart parking lot at 8 a.m.  listening to NPR.  I know I am not rockin'.   However, I was listening to a story on the book To Kill a Mockingbird they were saying how in 1960 the book was an eye opener to society about racism and prejudice, etc. And how the book is just as poignant today for other reasons. Being timeless and having multiple themes that resonate with a wide array of people...  I am in no way doing the NPR piece justice.  The point of my blabbering is:  it made me remember the name Scout, the young female narrator of the story.  I fell in love (love is too strong a word, I'm too undecided.) with the name all over again.  

Jon said it was nice and he liked it.  What the hell are we going to name this girl?  i like a lot of names.  but nothing fits yet.

Poll #1589509 runny nose.

pick one puh-leeeeeeeeese.

Sawyer
1(12.5%)
Lola
1(12.5%)
Estelle (este for short)
2(25.0%)
Scout
4(50.0%)

or suggest one....

 
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robert johnson and leadbelly [May. 21st, 2010|12:50 am]
I didn't change it.
it takes a few seconds to show up but it's worth it.
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i notce i understand, [Sep. 22nd, 2008|02:25 am]
I didn't change it.
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(no subject) [Apr. 29th, 2004|01:29 pm]
I didn't change it.
grave

n i g h t m a r e s
can
not
be
real.



i heard the dump trucks today.

about a loanly man.
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